Of all things from my home country that I miss the most, nothing can beat the sunlight that I now yearn for months. Why am I not feeling that positive urge and energy which has always pushed me forward? Is my body lacking vitamin D?

Dear diary, we are really overdue for a talk. You may think that I have forgotten about you, but I would never! You know, I have been going through a dry spell. It's pretty normal, don't you think? If it is of interest to you, I'm describing as normal what feels weird and painful to me.

When the end of a year approaches, many of us inevitably find it difficult not to rewind the moments and scenes that have most prevailed. In an attempt to define how our year was, we mentally label significant events either as good or worth forgetting.

I took the Friday off. My unfinished articles can brew a little bit longer. Those emails I must send can wait and the magazine’s editor should understand my slower pace as well. It’s almost weekend and for Christ’s Sake the sun is shining and inviting me to go outside!

Sometimes I think that I will never live in Brazil again. It’s harsh to say never, I know, but there’s not even a jot of desire that could picture myself there. But I do miss the Brazilian energy. A friend once told me “We Brazilians, whenever we enter a room, we fill it with life!”. I couldn't agree more.

There’s something beautiful in feeling blue when we say our goodbyes. We realize how much our heart has been carried away that we can almost grasp a tightness in our chest.

I can’t hide the excitement. Visiting another country, taking a plane for the first time in five months, hearing a different language, having high expectations although not being able to predict any of them. That’s how I feel (but tenfold).

I find fascinating the contradictory effect of movies and TV shows, trying to warn people about something bad for their health. I cannot help but assume that as much alarm as they raise, most people want to go against the tide.